Feeling Better

When Brad came home from work tonight I showed him my last blog post. Without saying anything, he pulled up this passage. There is no question in his mind that the Lord hasn't been in control of this situation. He is completely at peace and he is such a light for me. He knows that where he is, is unpleasing to the Lord, the place has no moral values. He has been put down today and been yelled at by this awful man at work. I am going to go and hug my amazing husband.

25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. Matthew 6:25-34

Getting a little nervous

Brad is supposed to be done at his current job next week. He has already filled out a million job applications and reapplied at school. He only has 12 classes to take until he graduates probably Dec 2009. He will be graduating with a BA in English with an emphasis in Literature so he can teach High School English. He will of course have other things to do before teaching but he will be closer. He is so excited to be able to finish school and fulfill his dream. He is trying to find any job that would be flexible with school hours and he is looking into working two part-time jobs to be able to achieve that. If needed I would also be willing to be a server again to fill in any gaps. I am trying to stay faithful but I am beginning to question whether he should have quit in the first place. Maybe he was supposed to stay there and stick it out and be miserable to see how strong he was. I am just really hoping that the Lord isn't planning to make us homeless to see if we really do trust Him and love Him. Yes, we still would, so hopefully our marriage does not have to overcome any more trials like the ones we already have. Please pray for us, for strength and for our family to come closer together. I have noticed that we have been kind of on different teams, we have let ourselves get caught up in the craziness of our lives and we are just not working together. I know the Lord is trying to show us something through this time I am praying that we can "see" what it is he is teaching us and for it to really sink in.
I am also thinking about this reunion thing and how badly I want to go, why do I want to go? So I can be nosy and see what everyone has been up to. That is not what the Lord wants, I do not need to be concerned with other peoples' lives. I also wanted to go on a camping trip, first it was going to be for a week and then I was just wanting a day. A day away in cooler weather with our family. Well we have decided that it is just not in the budget to drive anywhere extra. We don't know what the future holds so we have to make good choices with what we have today. We do have some money that is saved up, so we will be okay for a short (very short) while. We can be closer to each other in our own home and that is where we need to begin.
Thanks for listening and praying and letting me vent. Have a good day.

Uncle Brett

Well he is not actually and uncle but he is the closest Brad has to a brother. Brad is and only child, as am I, so we have to create Aunts and Uncles for the kids. The kids absolutely adored Uncle Brett, and it was so nice to have someone stay at our house. He left at about 9 this morning after making french toast for the kids, what an awesome Uncle! He has been on a "Super Vacation" Travelling from North Carolina where he lived- he sold his condo to go to graduate school full time. He has gone to (I believe) Colorado, Hawaii, San Clemente, our house, he is on his way to Arizona right now and I think he finishes up in San Diego. He is very kind and we were sad to see him go knowing that it will be a while before we can see him again. Yesterday the boys BBQ'd steaks, corn on the cob, potatoes, and chicken, and I made Brussel Sprouts inside. There was so much food! We had an awesome and lovely evening with Brett. The only thing that was missing was our Prince, he was with his Dad, but I think he would have remembered Uncle Brett from the wedding. Thank you Brett for coming, we will miss you!

The BIG Stand-er

My Little munchkin got his stander yesterday, it will help him to put pressure on his hips so he will want to stand on his own. On the way to pick it up, my husband got pulled over by a police officer. Brad explained where we were going and he apologized and the officer let us go with a warning. Brad was going 67mph in a 50mph zone, the ticket would have been $497. Wow what a blessing, the officer was referred to as the nicest man in the world for the rest of the day(by us). I was going to try to catch a video of the kids taking turns pushing the munchkin around in his stander but I was too late they had exhausted themselves doing so and became cranky very quickly, here is a pic of my cutie though. I cried when I saw him in it at therapy. It made him look so big and so little at the same time, and it is another step farther away from "normal". I know that in God's perfect timing he will be healed, it is just that I am having trouble with the fact that the Lords timing doesn't coincide with my timing. I'm working on it. The munchkin is sure adorable in his stander and the other kids love to be able to push him and interact on a whole new level. I also included some pics of the family resting after running through the house with the munchkin. Brad's cousin (who was also his best man in our wedding) is coming to stay with us for the day and leave tomorrow. We are very excited and have been cleaning like crazy people. He will be here in about 2 hours I'll post pics (after we take them of course lol)

Horsin' Around

I don't know what is so fabulous about pretending your brother/sister is a horse but my kids do it all the time. So much so, that when a friend and her baby were here, the Bulldozer tried to ride him like a horsey, "Um he's not a horse sweetie, he is a baby!" I told him. Well at least they are being nice to each other!

Notice Given, Yeah!!

My husband has turned in his two weeks notice two days ago. The last straw fell today when he got into work and well the camels back broke. He has put up with so much, I gave him the okay to go ahead with whatever he needed to do. He wrote it at work, he actually probably had it written out and saved on the work computer. It is very scary but we are relying on shear faith. Please pray for us to be strong, faithful and um frugal :). I know the Lord will take care of us, he always does. It is strange how I seem to stress over small things but when HUGE obstacles come my way I am very calm. We were going to go to my 10 year high school reunion but it is $200 for us both to go. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to go in the first place and now that we need to be extra cautious, the decision has pretty much been made for us. It is probably better, I was totally stressing about what outfit I would wear and if said outfit would make me look pregnant(someone asked me if I was the other day). So now I am more relaxed-oh but I am sick or suffering from allergies, also the bulldozer is not sleeping at night, from 1am to 4 or 5am he is awake and laughing or talking. I don't know what the deal is. Teething? too much sleep? I have no idea but it better stop-we are exhausted. I got my hair cut today, I love it!! My girl does such an amazing job. The pic of my new hair is now my profile pic nut I will put it here also.

Pictures from this past week

The kids were getting ready for swimming on the Fourth of July and then having fun in the backyard. The last picture is just of my sweet girl looking so very big.