We have decided, my husband and I, that we are not going through with the feeding tube surgery. One of the ladies that comes to the house to work with the boys came by today, but not to work with the boys. She came to let us know that ever since I told her about the surgery she has been praying and that she thinks we should get a second opinion. From her perspective, he is doing too well for a setback like this. She said that she has seen kids that need feeding tubes and it is because they don't eat. That isn't the case for the Munchkin. She prayed with us and then Brad and I talked about it and we decided that we will not be taking him for surgery. The doctors' office called to ask us if we were confirming our surgery date and I said well actually I tried to call you but the office recording came on. We are not having the surgery. And I told her our reasoning. The nurse at the office said, Well, good! If you don't feel he needs it then you know him best. If the Doctor feels very strongly against this the she will call you. I deeply thanked her for her call and making me feel better about our decision.
Thank you to everyone for praying for our family!
Last night I was able to go to a bible study at the church. It is a 10 week study and I went at week 7. I didn't realize I would be joining in the middle but I am sure glad I did. We are doing Beth Moore's-Believing God. Wow, it is so amazing! The part that stuck out in my mind is when she says that "There are times when we cry out to god-Lord what do you want me to do in this situation- and he says-I already gave you an answer, you're just looking for a different one." How true! With this feeding tube I didn't want to get it but I wanted it to be the Doctors decision not mine. I did not want the responsibility of having the decision on my hands. If it hindered his current physical abilities, then it wasn't my fault. If he continued to not gain weight, then it wouldn't be my fault ( If I was able to talk her out of the feeding tube) Now Brad and I have made this decision together, not because we can blame one another later if we made a poor choice but because we know our son. We know how well he is doing right now, and we can't possibly hinder that growth.