Saturday, March 15, 2008

Success!

First time at bat!
He's the one facing the camera, next to the coach
I made it through the t-ball game!!! It was rough, especially at first when the princess told me she had to go potty right when the prince walked away to get the team picture taken. The coach looked after him for me and I picked up the princess and pushed the double stroller as fast as possible. The bathrooms were really far away. On my way there a woman that I had sort of known from a mommy group 6 years ago saw me and asked how I was. I replied.. "Ummmm not good she has to go potty and the bathrooms are really far away...." She said " Do you want me to watch the boys for you?" "YES, please they should be fine..." as I was running toward the bathrooms. When I returned, I hugged her. She totally saved me. Another thing that was soooo hard was that the princess kept finding these stinkin' seeds on the ground. She thought they were neat so they caused her to stop..... and look.... and pick up..... and inspect..... and drop..... and pick up..... I Love that she is so curious, but not when I am on a schedule, or if babies are crying. So I would scoop her up and while carrying her she would of course drop her seed then cry.... ahhhh my seed. Oh my goodness!




The Prince really seems to enjoy baseball, he is focused, which is new for us. I don't know if it is the sport or that he is just maturing. I am so proud of him. He is doing so well in school also, he is growing up quickly.

Friday, March 14, 2008

T-ball

Okay I am feeling a bit stressed about tomorrow. The Prince has his first t-ball game ever, but that is not the stressful part. What has got my mind going a million miles a minute is the fact that we have to be at the filed for pictures at 7:30am. The coach asked everyone to be there at 7:20 so I have to aim for 7:00 BECAUSE... I will be attending without my Husband, BUT with my 4 children. So.. pictures at 7:30, game at 9:00 and then we must stay for opening day ceremonies at 10:00. Just writing about it makes me want to either cry or throw-up. There is absolutely no way that a) anyone will be able to enjoy it, b) we will make it that long without the princess having to use the restroom and c) that I will even be able to watch more than 3 seconds consecutively of his first game and more importantly, I won't be able to take pictures. I must say though that his uniform is completely adorable and so is he, I think we may have finally found a sport that he truly enjoys.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Race For Hope

I just wanted to make everyone aware of a Race for Hope coming up in Monrovia on March 30th. It supports Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS). It is not very common, but our babies had it. It is where identical twins are sharing a placenta and they are also sharing blood vessels. One baby takes all the blood and nutrients and the other one gets hardly any. The baby receiving all the blood produces lots of amniotic fluid and the other baby can't produce fluid. Both babys' organs could begin shutting down, from their hearts and bladders to their kidneys.

Here is our story:
We found out we were having twins when I was 16 weeks pregnant. The week before they told me there was only one baby. Um I think they may have been wrong about that :). One of the babies had a ton of fluid and the other was quickly becoming shrink- wrapped in his amniotic sac due to a lack of fluid. We had a few options on how to correct the problem. 1. Do nothing and see if it corrects itself 2. Choose the healthier baby and cauterize the other baby's umbilical cord to ensure that at least one baby would survive 3. Have a surgery to cauterize the blood vessels connecting the two babies. If we chose to do nothing and the problem got worse we would probably lose both babies, they were using each other to survive. If one died the blood would stop flowing back to the other baby. Option 2 was not an option because even though being parent's of twins was scary we wanted both of them. So our only option, the only option with hope, was option 3.

Even with the surgery there was such a small chance that both babies would make it, especially the smaller one. I was put on bed rest immediately. At my appointment at 18 weeks the babies had not improved so two days later we were in Hollywood for a consultation to see if we met the criteria for the surgery. The following day I was in surgery, I was scared to death! They only had to cut a 3mm incision and they put a fetoscope, and a laser in the tiny hole. While they were in there they took out 2 liters of extra fluid from the bigger babys' sac.
The next day they did an ultrasound to see if one or both babies were still alive. It was the longest minute of my life while the doctor was looking for their heartbeats. I was crying when Dr. Chmait told us they were both okay. The next two days we had had ultrasounds to check on them. They were fine.

I spent 3 more weeks on bed rest at home, then when I went in for an appointment I was checked into the hospital. I was dilating, I had been ever since the surgery and they put in a cerclage to close my cervix but it just wasn't helping. So I stayed in the hospital for six weeks, while I was in there people from our church I did not even know were at my house watching my children and bringing dinner. It was amazing! Family and friends were also helping. We would not have made it through without all the help. During this time my husband got a staph infection on his leg. He was not allowed to come visit me for a week. It was horrible, a week or so after his leg got better they did and ultrasound ad it showed that the smaller baby was just not catching up in size. I was devastated. I felt like I was in the hospital for no reason, I wasn't even helping the smaller baby catch up in growth. All I was doing was missing my husband and my daughter in her 11th month of life. I also missed walking my son in to school on his first day of kindergarten. I had given up, I needed my husband to just come and be near me and pray with me. I had the ultrasound on Monday and that whole day and Tuesday I just cried. Wednesday I was feeling a bit better except I had gastroenteritis and my stomach was hurting. That night I started having contractions and I had to get shots of turbutaline to make them stop. Thursday morning I woke up at about 6:30 and got up to use the restroom. When I got back in bed to go back to sleep I started really having painfulcontractions. I called the nurse to let her know I was contracting and she came in to put a monitor on me to see how frequent they were coming. When she was gone to get a shot to try to stop them my water broke. She reached down to check me and I was 9cm. I called my husband to hurry up and make it to the hospital. He was 30 minutes away and I was already being wheeled down the hall to have a c-section. He met his mom on the way and handed our daughter over to her. He walked in the door just as they were making the first cut. I was only 28 weeks pregnant, I knew my babies were going to be tiny. I wasn't worried, I knew the Lord was taking them out of me because I had already done all I could for them. Now, them being out was going to be better for everyone. The bigger one came out first at 8:10 am He let out a little cry and then they immediately intubated him so he could breathe. The smaller one came out at 8:11 am and he did not get a chance to cry because they intubated him so quickly. They weighed 2lbs. 7oz. and 1lb. 7oz. They were so very tiny. They put them in incubators and wheeled them into the NICU to begin their very long stays of 83 days and 105 days. They had blood transfusions and platelette transfusions and infections and mean nurses who told me not to touch the smaller baby. While they were in there the doctors did an ultrasound of the smaller babys' head and found that more that half of his right parietal lobe was missing. We later found out that for him that means mild cerebral palsy.

The reason I am writing all of this is because of this race for hope. I was just contacted the other day by the doctors office who did the surgery at 19 weeks gestation and they are having a reunion with the doctor and all his patients. I have not really thought about any of this for while because I am so consumed with other things like diapers and runny noses. But after the phone call I started to remember that this doctor, Dr. Chmait, saved my babies lives. It is because of him and the research that he is doing that my miracle babies are even here. I can't even imagine what life would be like without them. We are so excited to thank the man (again) that saved their lives and we are so excited to be a part of the race for hope to raise awareness of this syndrome.

I have a few side notes that are interesting:
  • The surgery I had was experimental and still is.
  • The insurance company was not going to pay for the surgery because it is experimental.
  • The smaller baby's umbilical cord was not implanted into the placenta it was next to the placenta and blood vessels were connecting it so he could receive blood.
  • He was only receiving about 10% of the amount of blood he was supposed to be receiving.
  • The hospital I stayed in in Hollywood was Hollywood Presbyterian, the nurses were talking about blessings and praying for us. That was out of the ordinary for a hospital.
  • Everyone we met through our journey we know was placed there from the Lord.
  • My doctor out here was devastated when he found out the smaller baby had brain damage. He had wished taht he had noticed it when I was still pregnant. I feel it was a gift from the Lord. They may have thought he was hopeless and talked us into terminating his life.
  • From a medical standpoint our little munchkin is not perfect and has a damaged brain, but from the Lord's standpoint he is perfectly made. The Lord made my sweet Angel EXACTLY the way he wanted him, he has a plan for him.
  • The smaller babys' first and middle names mean gift from God, who is like God.

Here is a link for the race for hope:

tttsraceforhope.org

Another site with information about TTTS:

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/multiples/ttts.htm

Exhaustion

Everyone is sick. Not one of us got a good night sleep last night. Actually that is not all that unusual for me but for everyone else it is not so good. I am going to need to do some serious praying today for help, energy, patience and the ability to be kind when it would be much easier not to be. I am so tired my eyes are burning, that usually doesn't happen until much later in the day... it's only 10am. I will be needing coffee and lots of it. Ooh I wonder if everyone would nap at the same time so I could get a nap? Probably not, that only happens when I am not tired and I have nothing to do... which is never.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

My landscaper

Okay at first when my Husband started showing an interest in the backyard I thought I was going to lose my mind. He was spending so much time outside, but who can blame him it's crazy in our house. When we moved in the yard was dirt and he has worked and worked to make it the beautiful yard that it is. Now that projects are completing I really appreciate all his hard work.
He is amazing. There is still more to do but it has to happen in stages because we don't have endless amounts of money. He has made and amazing garden with cilantro, parsley, strawberries and dill. Tomatoes, Peppers, squash and spinach will be coming soon. We have a new tree, a Bradford pear. We have gardenias, calla lillies, jasmine, a lemon tree and other plants. He built the walkway on the side of the house, he worked so hard on it and it looks amazing. I just wanted to share some of his hard work. I will post more picture as projects are completed. His First Rose!!! The walkway before he planted the Calla Lilies
Straightening the creeping fig

Elbows and Knees

The princess just yesterday discovered that she has two elbows AND two knees. She was so excited that I decided to interview her regarding her new found limbs. I have included a video of the interview. To Grandpa zippy and Grandma C: she is wearing her Tinkerbell pajamas that you got for her, we were watching Peter Pan and she just HAD to wear them.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Shower Mishaps

Mishap#1
Okay so apparently I don't get enough sleep because it affects my morning shower. About two weeks ago I was getting into the shower and one of the babies was starting to whine so I was thinking that I will just be really quick. Well I put shampoo on my hair and then I realized I needed more so I reached down, eyes closed and pumped some more into my hand. But now my hair was no longer bubbling. I had grabbed conditioner instead. Okay, now I had to rinse and start over again because my hair wasn't clean yet. So now the shampoo went fine, I got enough the first time (I made sure of it). But now it is time for conditioner, put some in my hand then I realized I needed more, I reached down with my eyes closed to get more and put it in my hair. UH now my hair is bubbling! So I rinsed out the shampoo/conditioner mixture and finished my very long shower that was supposed to be short.
Mishap#2
I was in the shower the other day and could not remember for the life of me if I had put shampoo yet or did I already put conditioner and rinse it out, or nothing. I stood there for a good minute or so trying to recall getting shampoo, I went through motions and everything, No luck. I could not remember so I began with shampoo.
Mishap#3
I was in the shower and I really needed to shave so I began with my leg then to my underarm and continued until I was finished. I got out of the shower and started to put lotion on. I got lotion all over my body, when I was putting it on my last limb, my right leg I realized I forgot to shave that leg, so I had to get back in the shower and shave that leg and then re-lotion that leg.
I think I need someone to monitor me in the shower or maybe a checklist or something..... I cannot keep wasting shampoo and time like this, it's ridiculous.